Love is..

it's like we're trying to understand each other. it's like, maybe, we're not ready to face the worst facts that waiting for us. the facts that in the world nothing that always goes right. there's always a miss-comm, or maybe a different opinion, and that's a start for a fight.
Honestly, I'm not ready. I'm not ready to lose you. to lose someone that can understand me inside out. someone that trying so hard to make me better, to take care of me. I'm trying to give him the best that I could. I want to make him happy. I want him to stay. stay loving me the way he always did.

me and me

I really don't care what you people gonna say about me. what I know now is this is who I am, I just in the middle of a really bad temperature and I don't wanna have fight with anybody. so please behave. I have a really bad temperament and don't look for a trouble with me. I never forcing you to be friend with me,but please just don't bother trying when you're tired. my mood right now is really not good.

I found my happiness (for now)

well, for so many times, I thought I will never found my happiness. what I mean is, happiness is really hard to find, it's not always about money, having a big house, having a success career, but also you have to surrounded by family and friends and of course lover. and when I said surrounded, it's not just you're 'having' them. but you really have to feel that you're happy with them, you feel comfort with them. I know how it feels when I just 'have' them, but I don't feel like they care of me. I thought they only came when they need me, when they miss me, but now, I know how it feel to be with them.
well, I'm just gonna talk about my friends now. I never thought they could be so much fun. but today, I actually realize, I need them in my life. I love them. I mean it. they could always make me smile. they know my problem, and they always tell me the solution, and they're not just like saying "well you gonna be okay" but they also like "you have to do this". I don't mind if they tell me I was wrong. I'm happy with them. for the first time, I don't wanna leave them. I wanna be with them all the time.

not sure

well, the point I want to talk about (before I explode myself) is, if you fall with someone just by her look, I'll make sure, you will leave her soon or later.

Be yourself

Don't lie. Don't ever lie to me. I will know. We, girls, know when a guy lie to us. Even when you smile, I know that's not the real you. I know there's still actually something you wanna say to me. But I still remember my words, I won't force you. I will stand back. From now on, I can only smile when I re-read our chat, when I'm thinking you're smiling at my chat. I'll let you go, I'll let you decide what best for you, you know it. I'm so glad to know you. I want to see your smile at me again. Thank you for staying even for a while. :)